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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2009|08:28 pm]
Went out for my weekly sushi in a ritualistic manner last night, but I might not be able to for a while.
I suppose if I only ordered veggie rolls and tamago...hmm.
I filed for unemployment on Friday afternoon. My mental tendency is to beat myself up over these things, but I've been trying not to. After all, I'm riding the same crap-encrusted star cruiser as everyone in animation, and it's someone else's fault if it's anyone's.
I watched LET THE RIGHT ONE IN again, and did some coloring for a friend's film. Talking to my folks made me feel better, too.
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(no subject) [Apr. 18th, 2009|06:07 pm]
I took my car into the Honda place to get my headlights fixed and an oil change, and it turned out that I needed, like, $1500 worth of repairs.
All these shitstorms descending at once. It's starting to be fairly absurd.
After I found out, I went into the ladies' room and cried and banged my head on the wall. I ended up getting the more urgent repairs done, the brakes and headlights and whatnot, and the others will have to wait till I get a job. At least I know my brakes are sound and the maintenance light isn't constantly glaring at me anymore.
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(no subject) [Apr. 17th, 2009|02:41 pm]
I managed to in touch with Devin. Basically he said he had wanted to break up with me but was having trouble figuring out how, and putting it off was making him even more depressed and anxious. I guess I kind of expected something like this, so I didn't press the matter. I'm glad he finally told me and I hope it's a load off his mind.
I imagine it will be better for both of us in the long run, but I'm going to miss him pretty bad. I already do. I deleted his number from my phone in case I got drunk and decided to call him on a whim.
The electricity came back on, at least.
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(no subject) [Apr. 16th, 2009|01:27 pm]
I was trying to get the D out of my mind, but I got to talking with some Calarts friends, both male and female, and they seemed to think Devin's behavior (or lack thereof) is really rather mystifying. Disturbing scenarios occurred to us.
I'm not sure I still want to be this guy's girlfriend, but I'd like to know if he's okay. For all I know, he could be in the hospital (or the loony bin!) I tried emailing and texting him to no avail. My friend Jihyun thought I should go to his house and confront him, but I don't think it's such a hot idea. I might find him with another chick, or just make him really mad. Or he might not be there at all.
When I got home last night the power was out on my block. The wind knocked out one of the wires, I guess. I was going to make macaroni and cheese and then watch a movie, so my evening was pretty much wrecked. The power was still out when I left this morning.
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(no subject) [Apr. 15th, 2009|04:24 pm]
I'm finding it hard to get interested in anything. I feel like I'm rotting inside my skin. But it's nothing new.
Hanging around Calarts. I've been trying to work on my new portfolio. Got some nice pieces for it, but I've got a long way to go.
One of my best friends is getting on my nerves a little bit, although I suppose he means well. I think he feels that I don't put enough thought and care into my art, and that I don't ask for enough feedback. The thing is, his art is amazing but it's extremely fussy and precious, and maybe that works for him. But most of the older artists that I've talked to say that spontaneity and, well, gnarliness, is my strong suit. Worrying about what Friend X is going to say isn't making my drawings any better, it's just giving me a pencil cramp.
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2009|01:51 pm]
That song 'Highwayman' appeared on my Pandora.com playlist. I like the tune, but I thought I heard the guy sing 'Many a young maid lost her marbles to my trade(!?)'
So....yeah. I'm out of a job and my boyfriend disappeared without a trace. I'm tempted to wallow in despair, but I know this is the worst thing I could possibly do. I could, instead, see this as a chance to get a better job. And a better boyfriend.
All the story folks went to dinner at Gordon Biersch last night. I had some hefeweizen and a crab cake sandwich. The beer was very nice. The sandwich was a bit substandard, too much spice and filler. I should probably have known that a brewery restaurant in Southern California isn't the best place for this eastern delicacy. I had a pretty good time, though.

UPDATE- With the intention of starting a search for a new boyfriend, I registered on eHarmony.com . After I filled out the questionnaire, it told me I was part of that unmatchable 20%. I thought those questions were dumb.
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(no subject) [Apr. 6th, 2009|04:23 pm]
The voice in my head keeps telling me I had my chance and I blew it. I guess I'll just keep going because there's nothing else to do.
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(no subject) [Apr. 3rd, 2009|10:14 am]
Set my Facebook page to 'single.'
A dull, frustrating, inconclusive end to a pretty good story.
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(no subject) [Apr. 2nd, 2009|04:53 pm]
Dunno if I get to stay at Disney yet, although I got better marks on my review.^^
It's kinda nerve-wracking, though. I'm also pretty upset that my boyfriend seems to have severed all contact with me, no explanation given.
I didn't think it would end like THAT.
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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2009|10:53 am]
I did my frickin' taxes. Woo.
I saw a great big American Egret standing next to the freeway in Burbank, but I had to keep moving. I suppose I'll never know how that story turned out, or how the bird ended up there in the first place.
Speaking of not knowing, I also emailed the D and asked him if he was mad at me or something. I would love to believe that he's actually a secret agent and that's why he doesn't have time for me. I think he'd be a pretty good spy. He's super organized, buttoned-down and good with computers and gadgets.
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