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[Apr. 19th, 2009|08:28 pm] |
Went out for my weekly sushi in a ritualistic manner last night, but I might not be able to for a while.
I suppose if I only ordered veggie rolls and tamago...hmm.
I filed for unemployment on Friday afternoon. My mental tendency is to beat myself up over these things, but I've been trying not to. After all, I'm riding the same crap-encrusted star cruiser as everyone in animation, and it's someone else's fault if it's anyone's.
I watched LET THE RIGHT ONE IN again, and did some coloring for a friend's film. Talking to my folks made me feel better, too. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2009|06:07 pm] |
I took my car into the Honda place to get my headlights fixed and an oil change, and it turned out that I needed, like, $1500 worth of repairs.
All these shitstorms descending at once. It's starting to be fairly absurd.
After I found out, I went into the ladies' room and cried and banged my head on the wall. I ended up getting the more urgent repairs done, the brakes and headlights and whatnot, and the others will have to wait till I get a job. At least I know my brakes are sound and the maintenance light isn't constantly glaring at me anymore. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2009|02:41 pm] |
I managed to in touch with Devin. Basically he said he had wanted to break up with me but was having trouble figuring out how, and putting it off was making him even more depressed and anxious. I guess I kind of expected something like this, so I didn't press the matter. I'm glad he finally told me and I hope it's a load off his mind.
I imagine it will be better for both of us in the long run, but I'm going to miss him pretty bad. I already do. I deleted his number from my phone in case I got drunk and decided to call him on a whim.
The electricity came back on, at least. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2009|01:27 pm] |
I was trying to get the D out of my mind, but I got to talking with some Calarts friends, both male and female, and they seemed to think Devin's behavior (or lack thereof) is really rather mystifying. Disturbing scenarios occurred to us.
I'm not sure I still want to be this guy's girlfriend, but I'd like to know if he's okay. For all I know, he could be in the hospital (or the loony bin!) I tried emailing and texting him to no avail. My friend Jihyun thought I should go to his house and confront him, but I don't think it's such a hot idea. I might find him with another chick, or just make him really mad. Or he might not be there at all.
When I got home last night the power was out on my block. The wind knocked out one of the wires, I guess. I was going to make macaroni and cheese and then watch a movie, so my evening was pretty much wrecked. The power was still out when I left this morning. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2009|04:24 pm] |
I'm finding it hard to get interested in anything. I feel like I'm rotting inside my skin. But it's nothing new.
Hanging around Calarts. I've been trying to work on my new portfolio. Got some nice pieces for it, but I've got a long way to go.
One of my best friends is getting on my nerves a little bit, although I suppose he means well. I think he feels that I don't put enough thought and care into my art, and that I don't ask for enough feedback. The thing is, his art is amazing but it's extremely fussy and precious, and maybe that works for him. But most of the older artists that I've talked to say that spontaneity and, well, gnarliness, is my strong suit. Worrying about what Friend X is going to say isn't making my drawings any better, it's just giving me a pencil cramp. |
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[Apr. 9th, 2009|01:51 pm] |
That song 'Highwayman' appeared on my Pandora.com playlist. I like the tune, but I thought I heard the guy sing 'Many a young maid lost her marbles to my trade(!?)'
So....yeah. I'm out of a job and my boyfriend disappeared without a trace. I'm tempted to wallow in despair, but I know this is the worst thing I could possibly do. I could, instead, see this as a chance to get a better job. And a better boyfriend.
All the story folks went to dinner at Gordon Biersch last night. I had some hefeweizen and a crab cake sandwich. The beer was very nice. The sandwich was a bit substandard, too much spice and filler. I should probably have known that a brewery restaurant in Southern California isn't the best place for this eastern delicacy. I had a pretty good time, though.
UPDATE- With the intention of starting a search for a new boyfriend, I registered on eHarmony.com . After I filled out the questionnaire, it told me I was part of that unmatchable 20%. I thought those questions were dumb.
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[Apr. 6th, 2009|04:23 pm] |
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The voice in my head keeps telling me I had my chance and I blew it. I guess I'll just keep going because there's nothing else to do. |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2009|10:14 am] |
Set my Facebook page to 'single.'
A dull, frustrating, inconclusive end to a pretty good story. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2009|04:53 pm] |
Dunno if I get to stay at Disney yet, although I got better marks on my review.^^
It's kinda nerve-wracking, though. I'm also pretty upset that my boyfriend seems to have severed all contact with me, no explanation given.
I didn't think it would end like THAT. |
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[Mar. 31st, 2009|10:53 am] |
I did my frickin' taxes. Woo.
I saw a great big American Egret standing next to the freeway in Burbank, but I had to keep moving. I suppose I'll never know how that story turned out, or how the bird ended up there in the first place.
Speaking of not knowing, I also emailed the D and asked him if he was mad at me or something. I would love to believe that he's actually a secret agent and that's why he doesn't have time for me. I think he'd be a pretty good spy. He's super organized, buttoned-down and good with computers and gadgets. |
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[Mar. 27th, 2009|11:44 am] |
Was gonna try and do my taxes online, but it turned out I didn't have all the necessary stuff AND I left my phone at home. So I'll have to try again tomorrow. This kind of thing really upsets me for some reason. I'm not sure why. It's not like much is at stake. I'll probably get a nice refund.
Devin is busy this weekend AGAIN. It's getting me down. It shouldn't, I suppose. I got along okay before I met him.
Aside from these little piranha bites, things are pretty okay. I got a free copy of BOLT. It's...free. |
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[Mar. 26th, 2009|04:49 pm] |
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Had my review. I'm not sure how it went. I'm going to try not to presuppose anything. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2009|03:14 pm] |
Another Devin-less weekend. I can easily imagine he's got a good excuse, but I'm getting kind of bummed about it.
Did my five-mile hike in Towsley Canyon yesterday. Walking at a good clip, it took me about two hours. I'm going to be pretty busy in the next three days and won't have much time for exercise, so I felt like I should make up for it.
There's a redtailed hawk nest on a cliff next to the northbound 5 approaching Valencia. I'm kind of worried about what will happen to the baby hawks when they take flight for the first time. They could very easily fall into traffic. I wonder if hawks understand the dangers associated with falling into traffic.
Watched ASHES OF TIME REDUX. I'd seen the old version on VHS a long time ago. Didn't like it then, but I thought maybe I should give it another chance. Didn't like it this time either. It's got a reputation for really great cinematography, but I couldn't see it. Certainly, it's not as good-looking as some of the other movies Chris Doyle worked on. It's got a great cast, too, Leslie Cheung, Brigitte Lin, Maggie Cheung, both Tony Leungs, Jacky Cheung, Carina Lau and Charlie Yeung, lot of 'ungs' but all they do is stand around, speak in monotone and glare at each other from beneath their glamorous eyebrows. Interspersed with the occasional action sequence shot way too close in, blurry and shaky-cam which doesn't do Sammo Hung's fight choreography any favors. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2009|01:39 pm] |
So, yeah. The Secret of Kells screening at Disney. A screening marred by a malfunctioning projector and the effects of one and a half Cape Codders foisted on me by one of my colleagues.
I admire what the director is trying to do, although I feel like it didn't work all the time. Some of the shots were SO stylized and flat that I had a hard time figuring out where my eyes were supposed to go. I thought it was kind of cool that they decided to make a movie about such a specific, culture-bound religious thing, although the cultural and religious aspects were rather watered-down. (Also I bet there weren't too many Chinese or African monks in 9th Century Ireland.*)
There was some comedy relief nonsense at the beginning which seemed to have been stuck in there to reassure us that we were indeed watching an animated movie.
I want to watch it again, though. I hope it'll get some kind of release over here, so I can see it properly.
*Yeah, I know, they were shooting for mainstream success and they assumed little Chinese kids would not be able to enjoy the movie unless there were East Asian characters for them to identify with. This is why FINDING NEMO was a box office flop around the world. All the characters were fish. |
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[Mar. 19th, 2009|03:37 pm] |
Obama's caravan drove by the studio a few minutes ago. I saw him quite clearly. He looks just like himself. Woo, history! So exciting!
Everyone was waiting at the corner. At one point, an electric utility truck went by and everyone waved and cheered at the utility truck, they were in such an expansive rapturous mood.
(Although it had no historical significance, my pitch this afternoon went quite well, too...I feel sort of bad about my last entry.) |
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[Mar. 19th, 2009|10:49 am] |
Managed to get in touch with Devin. He was visiting his sister in Santa Barbara.
I have one more pitch before the final review and my boards are not as nice or finished as I would like. I had originally planned to work late last night, but the editing program I was using kept malfunctioning. I wasn't feeling too good either. So I left, went for my hike and went to bed.
I think...I KNOW I'm not trying hard enough.
I want to have a job. I want to be self-sufficient, I guess. I wish I could be more enthusiastic about what I was doing. It's kind of hard to be enthusiastic, though, when I look into the future and see nothing. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2009|03:40 pm] |
An online quiz told me my spirit animal was a weasel. I'm rather flattered, although I think I'm too gloomy to be a weasel.
Watched LET THE RIGHT ONE IN, the Swedish vampire flick. It was a bit of an odd experience because I didn't really realize what was going on until the very VERY end, and it was like a punch in the gut. I also liked how it featured a traditional vampire who doesn't do kung fu or fire guns or...have DNA.
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[Mar. 14th, 2009|07:58 pm] |
The final story assignment is coming together, although as of last Friday I'd hit a snag involving multiple sets of fingers coming together, overlapping and performing various functions. It's always the small stuff that gets you. Eventually I said 'The hell with it, I'll see if a solution comes to me over the weekend.' In fact, I was discussing it with one of my story buds at the weekly cocktail party* and a plausible solution occurred to me right then.
Watched SYNECDOCHE NY last night. I figured Charlie Kaufman's movies are usually pretty interesting, at the very least. Hate hate hated it. I almost wonder if some of the critics saw a different movie.
I'd skipped my hike on Monday, Tuesday and Friday, so I did the five-mile hike today to make up for it, and then I went out for pho with Minkyu.
Haven't heard much from the D since last week. I think he's stressed out dealing with his idiot clients, and I suppose he might need some time by himself. If he wants to hang out with me he can give me a call.
*Yes, this guy has started hosting a cocktail party out of his cube every week. Cheese and crackers too. He wants to have a different drink every time. This week it was a pleasant girly drink called the Market Crash, with sake and pomegranate juice. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2009|04:20 pm] |
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Yesterday I got a decent start on my stuff for my final review. Didn't get much done today, though, because I was waiting around to get advice on this and that. It's frustrating. |
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